.....!

Saturday is
was
ok
at first.

No special occasion.
Did some errands.
Preparing for my travel
to Bicol.

Numb.
Yes that's what it is.

And I worry
that this feeling of limbo
feeling
dead
is the closest thing
to
peace

But
I'll take it.
Anything.

Then I got triggered
by a certain episode
about dating
from a dumb Netflix sitcom.

Then I watched
that spoken word performance
of the dad talking bout
the rules of dating his daughter

Then I found myself
HERE
which was supposed to be a safe place.

Saw a post where I thanked God
for Mawhi
because she's the only person
who can stand me.

Where is she now?

Can I just go back to numb?
I am pathetic.